I know everything happens for a reason.
&i just really cant comprehend any of this…
Idk why were fighting, well not we..he is fighting with me.. but i hate this..
He makes me look so crazy in front of his family..he keeps tellin me to leave, &for once i dont. For once im tryin to stick out, &he says if i think he’s put me thru hell, i aint seen nothin.
Like seriously.. ):
I tells me if i leave a lot of people will be hurt..&i honestly CANNOT chance someone getting hurt because i left….fuck man..i havent cried like this in awhile.
I actually believed that i’d never cry sad tears from my soul again because of him! Ugh!
I guess its what i get huh? I knew who he was, i just hoped he was different, he seemed different..he always does..
I cant wait to go to Job corp! Thats my ticket outta here! I dont wanna come back EVER! Because i know that he will calm down, &he’ll baby me &apologize..&he’ll be the silly him.
*i cringe saying that* but you have no ideaaaa..he goes from one mood to another so fast..&he trys to turn everything around, &honestly it just started happening like a week & a half ago.
Oddly after i started going church this started..but the Devil will not win. I serve thee most high God! I just gotta keep strong faith ¬ give up..I will go thru all this heart break again, & ill come out stronger..i always do. We all do.
Lord Just keep me safe is all i pray.
-amen
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